sadgirlbecky

laughing machine

2012-02-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

had my business etiquette assessment today. it was all about dining etiquette and making small talk in a business setting. it was like the worst lunch i ever had! the atmosphere was so awkward. cause i was sitting with my usual friends where we always act silly and laugh like no body's business. but today we had to like seriously sit down and talk business. first it started off with politics and then somehow it lead to animals. hilarious! then we started making up our own roles randomly. chloe apparently was pregnant, brandon was married w 3 kids and etc. well, i was just a single lady that went on a blind date on v-day. hahaha. had tons of fun though. well, at least i did cause i couldnt help but laugh throughout! the lecturer probably marked me down on that area for not being serious. LOL! :X #laughingmachine

then i stayed on in school for a while to just slack and send chloe off to her bf. well, more like i was being a busy body and wanted to see how her bf is like. i must say, he looks real different from the photos that we see. but other than that, he looks pretty decent. well, at least from his appearance :)

on the side note, things have been going on. i dont know what happened, but i feel that it is huge and i'm not in the picture. somehow i sense it. and just when i thought about it, it felt as if someone was squeezing my neck so hard that i cant breathe. i'm choking here but no one's there to save me. somehow, something is out of place.

xx

will you be my valentine?

2012-02-14T20:06:00.004+08:00

happy valentine's day to all!

Today was A FAIRYTALE.
loving that song, and it totally fits how i feel right this moment.
well, went to play pool with the BA peeps which was rather fun. had great laughs and just enjoyed knocking balls into the pockets.
what made me most enjoy today was dinner. had a lovely dinner w Benjamin and had great laughs and just talked. ohwell, he's just a really great friend to talk to. plus, he's so EGOISTIC. hahah! :S kept teasing me.

taht ot erom s'ereht, but its all a secret. :D

xx, #happygirlbecky

♥

2012-02-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

well, ive been having a pretty awesome/tiring week.

just looking back, so many things happened this week. and it all just went too fast. from the whole "who-ha" on wednesday, to the sobbing on thursday, to the silly laughing on friday, for the reflections on saturday, and for the decisions on sunday (which of course is today).

all i can say that is i'm clear headed now. just go with what i'm feeling and no one can change that again. there are many things which go through my mind that i dont wish to explain. but there's always someone who would understand. somehow, God has answered my prayers. and i'm indeed very thankful. ♥

so here goes nothing. this is the beginning.

xx, #happygirlbecky

its official, forever alone on the 14th

2012-02-08T21:53:00.004+08:00

i guess the title of my blog explains it all.

hasnt been a great day at all today. one main thing, i lost. well, basically he was put to the test and i lost. he just walked away. thank god for brandon. he's a wonderful bestfriend and i can never thank him enough for being there with me.
it was a big blow, but thanks to him it wasnt as bad.

now i have no idea what to do now. in a complete vortex of confusion, frustration. which eventually leads to the teary session.

i thought i had it good, but i guess life's always the complete opposite. i'll never be happy. ever.
xx

shopping is definitely the cure to everything

2012-02-07T20:38:00.003+08:00

well, as you can see. my mood swings are pretty extreme. so today's gonna be another example :D

so, had lessons at 3pm. basic event management again, so already wasnt looking forward to school. let alone, the thought of gg to school for only two hrs was kinda frustrating enough, cause have to travel 1hr to get to school. so nvm, got to school. had good laughs with my friends, being nutty and all while waiting for class to start. 30min passed, she didnt appear - LIKE THE PREVIOUS TIME. so we thought, maybe she got lost AGAIN. so 1hr passed and we got pissed. called her up only to find out that she was leaving the school. AND I WAS FURIOUS ALR! so, being the angry me, i called her up and nicely said 'so, i understand that you are leaving the school alr?" and guess what, she gave me like a matter-of-fact tone, 'yea' and the conversation went on and she didnt even have the decency of apologizing. i was like 1mm close to scolding her. but lashed it out behind her back. probably my peeps saw the semi-bad side of me. opps. :X

so, went off to go shopping with my mom at town. the thing is that, i was so pissed/frustrated/blur, i actually got onto the wrong bus! hahah! i was like so dumb. so got off the bus, didnt know where i was and cabbed all the way to town. DUMB RIGHT? hahah! :D felt so silly. finally reached town, went to marc by marc jacobs and bought my laptop case! :D hehehe $130! was super worth it! loving it to the max now! :D then went to h&m. my mom went crazy and bought tons of things from there! she like got an entire new outfit! hahah! :D nutty mother. :D well, couldnt find anything nice. cause i was mainly looking for blouses. so went back to 313 and went to glitterglam. it aint a popular, well known shop. just a small tiny shop that has one to two good stuff in there occasionally. so today i was lucky enough to get a quirky dress from there and a electric blue blouse! hahah! :D loving them both also! cant wait to wear them to school! :D

so, came back home to find a parcel laid on the table addressed to me! haha! :D finally received my dress from hervelvetvass! finally got a black dress :D well, something ive been wanting for a very long time. well, it was cheap. $25 only! hahah :D

well, today did end off on a good note. and i hope tomorrow would be another wonderful day! :D cherios!

xx

the season

2012-02-05T21:24:00.004+08:00

right now it seems to be an emotional down period for me. well, it always has been. its either i hate this season, or i love it to the max. well, right now, all i feel is pain. like always questioning myself why was i never good enough.

well, that's just how im feeling right this moment. i guess its the peer pressure + workload that is really getting to me. ohwells, the season is coming and going. that's just life.

xx

THAT'S JUST MY LUCK.

2012-02-04T22:53:00.004+08:00

okay, so here it goes.
wasted my entire morning slacking at home, cause it was threatening to rain and the weather was so comfy. so yes, was totally wasting my life then.
and 4pm came. so went to work and had a wonderful chat w berlin.
so blah blah blah.
1hr passed, 2hrs passed and the 3rd hr came. busy time cause its like dinner time. so yeah, the usual busy me and my clumsiness. so was serving serving serving. and suddenly i ran out of small change. cause all the idiotic customers were giving me $50 notes. so i had to run around the shopping mall twice to change $100 worth of small notes. so many shops rejected me, saying with that stuck up face 'ive got a business to run also' i was like WTH! so wtv, managed to change the notes and this customer just had to stare at me as if it was my fault the notes were all so big. screw you lady! if u want gd service, treat me nicely first!. omg, total crap day. moreover, when i was about to keep the ice-cream, two grps of ppl came to buy. when i had already washed up and everything. CANT YOU SEE IM CLOSING ALR? BLIND UH!
fine, so the working day finally ended.

AND CAME THE WORST PART! THE BITCH AKA TESSA AND HER HORRID BROTHER, ASSHOLE DARIEN, LOCKED MY POOR BABY NIKKI OUTSIDE THE HOUSE! when i got home, opened the gate and nikki came running to me. so i thought, oh my mom locked her out cause she kept peeing everywhere. BUT NO! WHEN I OPENED THE DOOR, THOSE TWO IDIOTS WERE SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM, ONE ON THE TEEVEE AND THE OTHER ON HER COMPUTER!!!!!!! OMG! totally shout, 'YOU KNOW NIKKI WAS OUTSIDE???????!!!!!' WAS SO FREAKING PISSED, GAVE DARIEN THE DEATH STARE. was so close to slapping the both of them. so, being the usual me, i went to complain to my mother, and she went to complain to THEIR FATHER. and guess what, he gave some bloody lame excuse to protect the both of them. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NIKKI IS SO MUCH IMPORTANT THAN THOSE TWO NON-HUMANSSSS! my poor baby.

thirdly, what frustrates me the most. the stupid amt of assessments bombed at me in one go. omg, wanna die alr. yeah, this isnt counted for me, but my grp member needs a good grade for it. omg, a problem that was not mine, now is mine. wts.

what hurts the most, u arent there when i truly need you. but its not ur fault. blame the books.

THAT'S JUST MY LUCK.

xx.

what matters

2012-02-02T17:27:00.003+08:00

ngee ann friends :D

and the photos of the girls and i arent uploaded on fb yettt! shall post it up when its on fb! :D

everyone's carried on, some may be at a slower pace, but no one is left behind.

today has been a pretty inspiring day i guess. to be honest, which clique doesnt have problems. some how or another, there would be bound to be challenges faced and obstacles to be clear. yes, they make the journey tough. BUT, it doesnt mean that in any point any one is left out. unless you feel that way. to make things clear, it's purely one own's decision to make and it entirely that person's responsibility to face the consequences or receive whatever reward is in store for them. that's my take in what has been happening recently.

another thing is that the 11 sisters have all split up already to different schools. i guess its now harder to meet up and such. one example was today. thanks to all the assessments pilling up, i couldnt even go to mel's house to hang out with the girls. and how i envy them having so much fun together whereares im stuck here at home trying to do my best in these assessments i have no idea how to go about doing it at all. oh man. :"( and saw bel today. she's really feeling terrible right now. thank god i was there to be by her side, but still, i guess i did a crap job at comforting her. but i really pray that she would be feeling better and always rmb that she's got 10 sisters to back her up! :D hehehe.

and on to the biggest problem on my mind. i like him, but does he like me. i can no longer comprehend. seriously have no idea what goes through his mind. like he gives so many signals and everything, but i always hear things that i dont wanna hear at all. i guess this is history repeating itself. me, running about in my own fantansy... :X ohwells, that's life.

gonna have to go to school earlier tmr to discuss and finish up on one of the million projects i have on hand now. gosh, #saveme.

12 days to forever alone day

where are you when i need you the most?

xx

camwhoring like nobody's business

2012-01-31T18:46:00.003+08:00

today is the first day of school for all the JC year one kids! omg. how times flies so quickly. reality dawned on me seeing all the tweets from the girls about their new school and somehow or another there was this warm fuzzy feeling that just came over me. idk, but i guess its a good kinda feeling. since we're all moving on! :D hehehe. ohwells. just gonna post the pictures of my friends and i "camwhoring" during Basic Event Management class today! #boringlessons
ps, i dislike dancesport. dreading tmr ttm! mindworks+dancesport=BOREDOM!

xx

date night

2012-01-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

today was a seriously awesome day. well, mostly tonight is awesome. so.. i conducted games for YF today as its the fifth sunday. it was nerve wrecking! did the number game i learnt from DPA camp. well, i seriously hoped everyone did enjoy themselves. after all, they managed to complete the entire game within an hr. then right aft, i had bible study. which was really more about discussing the plans for the new year. so when that was over, started walking around randomly at raffles city and bugis. met w nicholas for dinner at ajisen ramen. he was probably feelin generous, so he paid for dinner. and of course, i paid for ice-cream at swensens. had an awesome time w him, just walking around and talking whatever is under the sun. well, it was rather different than just smsing him. we're like both extremely nutty on sms, but pretty quiet when it comes to face to face communication. AND, my dad had this entire blow w me. about him being a non-christian and that i shouldnt be dating him. please la, it's my life and firstly, it was a friendly meal. secondly, i should have my freedom to choose whoever i wanna date right? omg. once i got back, had to hear and handful from him. ohwells, on the brighter side, I FINALLY GOT MY MACBOOK PRO! have been playing w it for around an hr already, but still am clueless on how this thing works. just know that the internet is available for me! heheh :D gonna have a rather long day in school tomorrow and im finally gonna see my girls! :D praying all of them do get posted into the school of their choice/liking!

xx

the wrap up

2012-01-26T21:05:00.005+08:00

this is the ECH+PSC+dan+brian clique. this is the tentative name given to ourselves as we've been thinking of finding another appriopriate name! hehehe :D love them all!!!!

this is the crazy buff and handsome brandon whom is one of my closer guy friends i guess. well, i seriously enjoy his company and he's really an awesome friend! (brandon, if u're seeing this, u better feel honoured~! )

DAN! the IT man! he's extremely good at IT stuff, something like a technical wiz! heheheh. well, he's also another awesome friend of mine and i really enjoy his jokes and company! :D

my awesome girlfriends (missing chloe)!!!! love them all!

well,
it's finally the end of the schooling week! wee~ yeah, it's only been two days of school this week. but it's SERIOUSLY exhausting! had lessons till 9pm yesterday which is super late! but i have totally awesome friends. like nicholas, he actually accompanied me all the way to raffles mrt. and kaian actually texted me to make sure i was okay. my mom picked me up from novena mrt. so, it was an experience that really pleasantly shocked me :D hehehee. love them all! <3
and today, had lessons for only two hrs. but we had the business etiquette assessment which is graded! omg. it was a grp work on how to make small talk and to network. everything during our role playing was just improvised and was in a total mess. but all in all, i guess my grp mates and i managed to make the best out of it and i seriously pray that we get a good grade! :D hehehehe

well, chinese new year has been really slow this year round. may says that it went pretty quickly, but honestly, i wished it would move even faster! hehehe :D *hidden motives* oh yes! something very important! ANGPOW RECESSION! i still cant believe it, but this topic was touched on in the news on the first day of chinese new year! there were like children being interviewed on how much they had gotten in their angpow's on the average. and guess what. they all said $10! and they were like "oh, w the recession this year's angpows have decreased" i was like, WTH! comeon, this year my average was $4 and there were many $2 notes this time round! omg omg omg. ohwells, so this cny hasnt been very eventful. :S

one thing i wanna end off with is that i really like the fact that i see berlin once in a while at novena. somehow, it makes me feel that i have not drifted away from my girls.. idk, just have that kinda feelin. ohwells, seriously cant wait for the 30th!!!!! weeee~ gonna have a blast that dayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohyes, valentines day is comingggggg~~~~

xx

it's entirely my fault.

2012-01-22T17:02:00.002+08:00

i have hurt him real badly. and i feel terrible about it. i have no idea what to do, what to say, how to react towards it. no doubt, i am still in a whirl and have no control over what i'm feeling right this moment. but i have hurt him. what can i do next?

xx

stuck in this unending well

2012-01-20T16:13:00.004+08:00

pictures of the first week of school!

so the first week of schooling in ngee ann just flew past quite quickly. and so many many events happened, so many emotions felt. firstly there are the new modules(subjects) i'm taking, and they all seem to foreign. let alone the environment and everything else has changed! its hard to adapt. maybe its just me, but honestly im struggling. it definitely hasnt been as flowy as i had expected it to be. and that leads me to number two. there has been so many mishaps gg on. accidents and non-accidents. after a while, i have no idea what am i doing anymore. playing or just being over-friendly. i guess i can no longer seperate the two. but he came along, and he's really causing my mind to be in a whirl. i even broke down yesterday. i myself dont even know what wrong, but it feels like there is this million pound weight on my shoulders and i just cant seem to get rid of all the uneasiness. this leads me to number three. and that is unable to strike a balance. i dont know what to do. if i just keep very quiet, people may say that i'm just being arrogant, being too indivisualistic. but if im too noisy, they may take it to be too irritating. yeah, i know that i should just be me. and not care about the opinions of others. but, who am i? i no longer understand. and now here's the fourth. im drifting further apart from my girls. it just doesnt seem right at all now. havent been actually speaking to them much and it feels like 4yrs of friendship just disappeared. im scared. to lost it all. really. no doubt i love my new friends that i have made, but im still scared...

you probably wont understand a thing i have written about, but this is it.
this week has seriously made me think alot, and i havent got any definite answers yet. what can i do ? #scared

xx

First Day of School at Ngee Ann

2012-01-16T21:58:00.005+08:00

hey all! omg, you have no idea how life's been for me right now. mostly i can say that it has been awesomeee !:D
had DPA camp last week which was seriously awesome. played amazing games like the 'number' games and the WORLD WIDE WEB! which i love the most! omg, shant go into details cause i'll seriously go crazy on how awesome THE WORLD WIDE WEB WAS! omg omg omg. hahah! (gone bonkers alr) hehehehee. but it was SERIOUSLY damn fun! and so would be the freshman orientation camp in march/april. hahah !:D i wanna be a GL there! yes yes yes! and most imptly, i met tons of amazing people! :D hehehe

here's my awesome grp photo, ONE FB!!!

pardon the tiny photo, lazy to change it's size :D

also met an amazing/friendly/very fair/nutty CUL that is hahaha NOT a small boy. i doubt he is reading this, but he is really a lovely friend to talk to. and super random at times! hahah :P

yes and met tons of amazing friends from my cohort! super funny people and i do love their company all the time! :D hehehe.
but all in all, i love my new friends and am also missing my sec school friends terribly! am praying that they all go to the school's of their choice, if not they should all come to ngee annnnnn! :D

hehehe, okay. gg super nutty now. well, the first day of school wasnt exactly that great or that bad. started off w mind work's lecture which was like a disaster! didnt know a single thing the lecturer was saying! he just spoke and spoke and spoke without any relevance to the topic of neuro-linguistic-programming. (chim right?) i have no idea what in the world is it about is omg, this definitely aint gonna get me a good grade. :S and now he has asked us to aid him in teaching the lesson and i was like "you gotta be joking!"
one word "unlucky"

hmmm, then there was sports and wellness which was kinda okay. did dancesport. if u are wondering, it's a partner dance. today we learnt the "jezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz" idk how to spell but it was kinda fun! the girls went round partnering diff guys aft we learnt part of the routine which was really funny! dancing and tryna find out the other person's course+name! hahaha! hilarious :D

well, another day of lesson tmr and i'm totally looking forward to it!
ps, preparing my set of clothes for the next day of school feels like im preparing to go shopping! hheheh :D
#joke

xx, nights!

Passion

2012-01-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

Well, as we all know yesterday was the long awaited results day!!! And the most miraculous thing happened which was that my name appeared on the big screen! Hahah :) was super unexpected. Honestly, I thought I was gonna get 17/18 PTA cause was constantly dreaming about it. But amazingly I got 10pts which was like woahhh!! Well, Matthew also did über duper well by scoring top in his sch w a 6pointer. Haha! This is really by god's grace that we got such good points! And I thank him so much :D the girls also did well! In fact my school did well! Am seriously really proud of the vball girls cause it really shows that even though we play hard, we study hard as well! Just one thing, this is it. It's separate ways for us now. Some to jc and others to poly. We would be all over the shop and it would be even more difficult for meet ups and stuff. :( Ohwells, will definitely plan something before the official jc school starts!!! So, for me im really blessed to be accepted by DPA cause now I don't have to think about choosing any course. So all those reading, pls do consider seriously to take DPA. It's no harm trying yeah?? :) for me, now im trying for a scholarship. Though chances are slim, I'm just gonna have a try at it :) maybe I might be blessed again and be applicable? Hahha :) talking about DPA, my dearest friend could not make the cut just because of eng and thus unable to continue w dpa. Many others also didn't make the cut. One even said " bye guys, I didn't make it". It was such a depressing comment that i was close to tears!! It's really very disappointing cause they initially put in tons of effort to get through but now have to drop out :( well, I do pray that they can get into another course in np and that we'll all meet up soon! Okay this next issue in gonna talk about is totally my one sided point of view but since it's my blog, I will just say it. The thing is that I am starting to feel that ECH is becoming like a back up plan for many. Well, I have no problems w ppl w passion doing this course, but for those getting into this course because it has a higher cop, I have really nothing to say to them but only feel super disappointed. Idk, probably cause I feel very strongly that kids need 'Real' love/care from professionals, thats why I'm being rather sensitive. Ohwells, it's just my view so judge or don't judge. Wtv. Just really needed to get that out of my system. So there's dpa's camp tmr at ngee Ann which I'm like super excited for! Jut that I did last min packing FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! Hahah. I feel like I totally over and under packed. Feeling something is missing and something is extra. Ohwells. Should be sleeping now. Gotta wake up super early!!! :)

xx

Swimming @ JE

2012-01-08T21:49:00.001+08:00

Had a wonderful day swimming w the girls today! Although not all were present, it was still very enjoyable! Honestly speaking, the slides and the lazy river is so much better than the one in wild wild wet. (though it's cheaper) yeah, the currents of the water was pretty strong to actually lift u off ur feet! Hahha :) and there was a grp of boys whom i have no idea how they look like asked for our numbers! Hahha. Joke! But it was rather funny :) so had a blast w the girls and of course I totally adore m bikini!!! :D yes, it's been a long time since I wore one. All in all, a fantastic day before we face the worst or bet tomorrow, cause its results!!! Hahha :) seriously have no idea how I'm feeling now. Somehow kinda excited and nervous at the same time. Ohwells, am gg on my knees to pray and hopefully am gonna have appropriate results :)
Nights then!

xx

Post title

2012-01-07T09:25:00.001+08:00

Ain't blogging much cause life just ain't that interesting. Ohwells, that's what u get when u have an ultra long holiday and u ain't seeing your friends through school. Hahah! So, had an awesome dinner at jumbo yesterday w couz and lunch was turtle soup! Awesome meals yesterday. But that's it. Nothing more. I guess now my life revolves around working at geladiso and watching my dramas repeatedly. I don't even have the funds to buy new drama for one reason, over shopping for school! Hahah :D #guilty. But that's all to feel comfortable in school so that I can score well. So makes sense? :) well, am looking forward to swimming w my girls tomorrow at jurong east complex and results on monday!! okay, there's seriously nothing more to say. Mata ne!!
xx

Happy new year!

2012-01-03T09:54:00.001+08:00

I know that the new year was a few days ago. But still, happy new year! Well, the reason why I haven't posted in such a long time cause one, it was a rather eventful week and two, I am lazy. LOL!! So, have been having the cousins from Australia down. Took them out to Vivo for the afternoon. Walked around, got myself a gorgeous bikini from rip curl and bought me mon a Christmas present (a very late one indeed). It was a phone like earpiece+microphone to be attached to the phone. Apparently it reduces 99% of radiation which is totally suitable for her cause she is forever complaining that she gets a headache after talking for a while. Ohwells, her sister had gotten the same one as well, so they had good laughs w it :D we also do catch a movie "sherlock homes" I must say it was a pretty interesting one! ESP liked the comical parts where Sherlock homes wears a suit to camouflage into objects. Hahah :) so after walking round Vivo, went back to the hotel for a night dip and had called in Canadian pizza for dinner. Here's the funny part, it was just four of us so I ordered two extra large pizzas. That's huge right? But apparently it wasn't enough for my couz and they actually went for supper!! Hahha :) massive eaters I must say! Well, all in all I had fun w them!

Hahha :) last words, this year's countdown sucked to the max !!

Xx

blessed christmas!

2011-12-25T16:34:00.003+08:00

so i guess its been a long time since i last posted? ohwells, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR LORD JESUS CHRIST! have been feeling really blessed these few days as they have just been full of smiles and love. well, did i mention i led in my bible study worship? well, even though it was only three songs, it went well and i guess i really wanna serve in the YF. just afraid that my voice would sound weird on the mic, or maybe my voice would totally lose control and got haywire! hahah :D

well, am having the couz all here now! as usual, im the only girl yet again. all the babies are boys. self-explanatory statement :D hahah! well, will be taking out two of them on the 1st dec. probably gonna give them a treat and stuff :D hahaha. of course all thanks to my job that pays be instantly, so i feel richer :D hahah!

lazy to type and all, but just really wanted to say : this holiday has been really special. idk why, but somehow ive been sillly laughing at myself when i think of him. ad i seriously felt disappointed when he said another girls name. is this one off feelings or something else??? hmmm.. :D

xx

cell retreat

2011-12-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

today was our first cell retreat. or probably the first one i went for. soooo.... it was really fun! did devotion, sharing and worship(lead by me) worship went well and i guess i really did well? hahah :D

okay, so there were laughs and stuff. (sorry, very lazy to blog)

then met aveline for din! had fish & co and went walking around to find sandals. got my sandals at $20. great night, and she's a really nice girl!

okay, this post is pointless. (self-talk)

xx

a bucket of laughter

2011-12-19T20:40:00.005+08:00

it has been a pretty eventful week. time and time again after each event, was actually planning to blog about it, but laziness stepped in and now im so very lazy to blog about everything! so let's slowly start off!
firstly was YF chalet! :D once again, another amazing chalet w my church peeps! had swimming at wild wild wet, cycling, fellowship, HTHT and crazy stuff!

we were playing blind mice and when it was shuin hern's turn, we all disappered into the room next door and he was wandering blindly by himself! hahah :D hilarious!

as usual, to relive the early mornings of playing captains ball, we actually bought a ball to play. although it was in the late afternoon! hahah :D look at my deceiving pass! (self-congratulations)

went cycling w these amazing bunch of ppl!

WILD WILD WET once again! hahah :D sat on the v-shaped drop w kaian and it was hilarious! while the lady was pushing us off, kaian suddendly shouted, "i cant grab the hooks" frantically and it was just funny to see his face in such a frantic state! hahah :D

so, next was sleep overs at mel's. we played mahjong all night long. sadly photos have not been uploaded yet :(

then the next day had the apaches outing to sentosa which was seriously fun! went w berlin, sherlene and diantian. sadly diantian had to leave half-way through :( BUT, we were playing volleyball for like 4 straight hours! it started off w the 4 girls, then slowly more ppl started joining in. then eventually left w the volleyball players playing only. berlin, sherlene, darren, bernard and i! hahah :D it was a real good play. plus, found out that darren is a libero for st hilda's! hahah :D amazing skills! and i was really happy w myself for being able to still receive a guy's spike even though i havent been training for almost a yr already! :D hahahha!

this was a shot after a long day of playing in the sun/rain.

came to know a girl named natalie :D

the two girls whom i had a blast w throughout the dayyY! :D berlin & sherlene

so, the next day which is sunday, i had a 12hr work shift which amazingly i managed to earn $360 of sales by myself! (self-congratualtion again!) hahaha :D

that's all for my eventful week. took a break today and tomorrow's gonna be fellowship w my cell group at nat's house :D plus, im leading worship! so i pray that the lord would guide me through! :D

i met this guy which is damn hilarious!

sorry for the different sizes of photos, too lazy to edit!

xx

Busy week

2011-12-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

Just finished my 12 hr long day at work. I must say that today wasn't as bad as the previous 12 hr long day. But, it was still as boring as ever! Well, I least I did people watching and actually managed to think of a few outfits for poly!!! Hahah :)

Anyway, won't be posting for a few days cause im like fully packed this week! Like, there's YF chalet tmr. Then sleep over at mel's which almost all the girls wills there! And then there is the long awaited apaches outing to sentosa!!! Have yet to buy my outfit though... Hahah :) probably on sat mornin I go buy :) lastly to end off the week, I've got another 12hr day work again :S so busy busy busy!!! Well, at least it feels better having cash w you! :)

Time to sleep, gonna wake up super early to meet church peeps!!! :D

Oh yes! On a side note, I like my blogskin :) hahahha

Xx

alive in christ

2011-12-12T09:33:00.004+08:00

so, i came back from church camp on saturday being dead tired. why? cause church camp was seriously awesome! :D wont go into details about how the camp went, but it was very inspiring/amazing/so many other things! there was the message which 2 things spoke to me.
1. we are spritually bankrupt in christ
UNLESS
2.we use all our heart and soul to want to worshsip him.
there were the games which was super entertaining.
1.painting of our warriors (grp name) flag. it has been years since we had painting of flags in camp. the last one was in 2007 where my team was timo'skids. hahah!
2.amazing race was nuts! we had to travel from habourfront to punggol. imagine that? gg through the entire purple line! so one station was at fort canning park and we got lost for about an hour and a half. not to mention we were running in the rain! landed up using 2hrs to complete our FIRST station. hahaha! crazy right? oh yes, and the clue was many beautiful song, bukit, translation. mei duo ge, hill. hahahh! :D but i thought the clue was very well thought of ! :D
3.mafia. it was a replacement game for who died. not a bad game, but honestly, who died is tradition and should not be replaced! :D hahahah
4. water games. that was on the third day. but in the middle of the game, it started pouring super heavily which was very disappointing cause the games team did plan a whole lot. PLUS, they took 2hrs to set up the games. :(

but all in all, i had tons of fun ! :D

this is my team, the WARRIORS! ♥

this is all the campers for alive in christ! yes, the number is small. BUT, we're a close knitted family and we all know each other despite being of different ages/grps which i love to the max!

totally love camwhoring w these girls cause they're nuts! hahah :D

so right after camp, despite being so drained out, went shopping w my dearest loser, JULIA! HHAHAHA! i seriously love shopping w this babe! why? cause we bought tonnes! hahaha. so met up at ion orchard and went to "all the things she need" shop. both of us got two shoes each cause they were like 2 for $39.90. cheap right? so we got them. then went walking around. got some starbucks, ESPRESSO FRAPPPEEE! ♥♥♥ then we went to zara, but too pricey for our shopping aim so headed to newlook. their spagetti straps were on sale, so i bought two. (black, white) then we went off to forever21 and spent like $60+ so that we could get the 10% discount! hahah! funny right? so i got a ring which is $3! CHEAPPPPP! then also got a blouse which was very nice. (last minute buy to complete the $59 min. julia bought earrings and a pair of beautiful PURPLE shoes! at the checkout point there are like these "dustbins" where almost all the cheaper stuff are there, we were so tempted to buy like all the different colour shoes there cause their colours where like so striking! hhahah :D but we didnt get them. so after that, we wanted to find julia some heels for her christmas dinners and stuff, so headed down to rubi cause i saw that they were having crazy sales! so we both bought heels cause they were like 2 for $40. she got a black one and i got a stripey blue and red one :D hahah! TOTALLY LOVED THAT SHOPPING TRIP cause it was all under $100 for so many things which is CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP! so wanna go out w her again! and probably drag more girls along! hahaha :D

xx

INJECTIONS

2011-12-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

"dear diary, today was a great day. and i hope for tmr to be a better day. goodbye"
sorry, i just had to type that down. idk why, just the sudden urge of relifting the times when i was little. used to write down "dear diary" in every entry post. hahah! :D

okay, back to reality. went for my medical check up this morning! travelled all the way to amk just to spend 2 and a half hrs at the docs. shall tell you what happened :D first went to take my x-ray which took me ages to get to, cause the queue was like freaking long. so i was like, nvm can just move on after. so went on to check my eyes and URINE TEST! which was disgusting! you had to pee half way through then catch the pee! omg, the floor was wet as well! i bet some ppl must have missed. #utterlyyucks!
so that wasnt too bad. the worst part is here. when i was taking my blood test this amateurish nurse TRIED to draw blood from my right arm. sadly, it failed. She was so nervous we moved into a room (which was quiet) and i had TWO NURSES hold my arm down to take my blood. not because i was screaming or hysterical, but just that my blood vessels were too small and thin. omg, and you know what? IT WAS ALL THANKS TO THE DENGUE INCIDENT! so in the end, i landed up being poked four times before i could take my blood samples.... omg, dreadful... :( and the time they tried drawing blood from my hand, it was excruciating! i can even still feel the numbness in it :D

hahah :D well, this morning was an 'adventure' that i would never wanna take again :D in the afternoon i had work for 7hrs which was damn slack. though i screwed up a few times :D ohwells, money well earned!

tmr's gonna be church camp! so wont be blogging till then :D

xx

choose a title

2011-12-05T19:41:00.002+08:00

i have no idea what title i should put for this post, so it remains as "choose a title" ohwells, today has been pretty eventful. headed to sherlene's house to drop off her camp stuff cause sadly she counldn't make it for class chalet :( good news though is that she looks much better and im glad that she's making it for her church camp, cause whats important is that church camp (whoever's church it maybe) is always awesome, cause they would be like hundreds praising God together! hahah! :D probably on the pre-church camp mood already cause my church camp is like in two days time? should start packing already, cause tmr's gonna be a hectic day :S back on the story of today, after leaving sher's place, i went to orchard to walk around. i swear shops are like drugs that hunt me down no matter what. even in just a cheap shop i wanted to buy so many things. of course i didnt leave empty handed from ion orchard, but it was extremely minimal. (pathetic)ohwells, saving up to go shopping w the girls for next year's poly clothes ! (guilty: i have tons of clothes, but it just seems like theres not enough :X) SO, went to forever 21 and saw tons i wanted to buy. like costume accessories and stuff. plus their "cosmetic" range is like freaking tempting. (eg, nail polishes) yes, gulity. i love crazy colours of nail polishs! now im tempted to change my toe nail colour tonight! :D okay, back to the story AGAIN, went to 'allthelittlethingssheneeds' and guess what? THEY ARE HAVING A SALE, BUY 2 GET 1 FREE! ohman, so wanted to buy like at that point of time, just to remind myself again how much money i lost at chalet. (WHICH IS REALLY PULLING ME BACK FROM SHOPPING, IM NOT RANTING) but giving it a lot of thought, $40 for 3 shoes, divided by like one year, that's just a few cents per wear! worth it? TOTALLY! cheap? DUH! = BUYYYYY! so i guess im gg back on sat aft camp to get them :D hahah! right after that, went to daiso (yes, the cheapest planet on earth) and bought myself a pink open rose for my room decor! well, its cheap, so buy! :D hahahah. well, i had to buy something if not i'll not be rebecca. though its only $2. wtv. :D so i guess another major shopping on sat. maybe i should pull more girls along! :D ohyes, and today was the 2nd day of work at geladiso. not too bad. well, at least i improved and i tried making a milkshake for the first time. plus, one customer said i was sweet :D hahahah. oh gosh, i wanna work like shit cause i need money desperately!

going docs tmr then work again. :D and, im not sick. just that the dpa thingy for early childhood education wants us to do crazy medical check ups like blood samples and urine test, NOT TO MENTION INJECTIONS! omg, (faints) not looking forward to that. :S
so, gonna have an early night tonight (after finish watching sweet home alabama) :D

xx

Romance marathon

2011-12-04T22:10:00.001+08:00

Today's post gonna be a really short one but ive been starting on a romance marathon!!! Yup, it's too many to list now but go to google and search for romance movies. They have wonderful long lists of romance movies that are ranked! Best of all, it sort of dates back all the way to the eighties which is pretty amazing. :) If ive for the time, I shall do a short review on all the movies I've watched already :)

For now, gg to sherlene's place tmr to pass her her camp stuff then off to work :) I seriously need to be loaded w. cash :)
Ps, this is not a good train of thought for a Christian :X
Nights!!!

Xx

Geladiso

2011-12-02T21:08:00.002+08:00

just had my first day at work at geladiso, square two. the pay isnt much, but it is a pretty slack job! :D made $24 today, and i guess i will continue earning more for the hols! :D well, for all ice-cream lovers, do come !!! :D

so, just wanted to say. i loved the process of organising the chalet and i did trust them to at least pay up. but the black sheeps continuosly keep putting me on a spot and in the end, im covering for them. im not complaining or ranting but #justsaying

xx

prom night + chalet

2011-12-01T20:26:00.007+08:00

this week has been a pretty eventful week cause there was prom night and 2dee'09 chalet! well, w these two awesome events gg on the week really passed quite fast and tmr is gonna be friday!

starting off w prom night! it wasnt as amazing as i expected it to be. it was no where near my expectations of somewhat like the movie "another cinderalla story" or "prom" but i guess its the company that makes it fun. and that was the total fun i had w my girls! :D hahah . all in all, it turned out to be a pretty amazing night .

xuwei was my prom date :D

my dress! amazing yeah? hahaha :D

camwhoring sessions even at the table! we cant be stopped!

the girls whom ive studied w for four years! :D xoxo

my awesome girlfriends whom i love deaerly!

honestly, i seriously love cheeguan's outfit! he would have won best dressed if there were to be a competition for it :D

the next day aft prom, we had 2dee'09 class chalet which was a bomb! :D i had loads of fun organising the chalet and stuff :D tears of joy and sadness accompanied w it, but it was all worth it! :D

so all in all, i had great fun at chalet. just one thing i wanna say. i have voluntaraily offered to use time, effort and even money to organise this chalet and i dont need anything thanks or praise, AND i dont want any fucked up attitude.

one example. 'i only went there to play soccer and didnt eat anything, why must i pay?" screw you, its a chalet and u are given the rights to come or whatever. you committed so u must pay. sorry if u were too lazy to come or not. fullstop. -.-
screw all you bastards.

xx

its my fairyland

2011-11-27T20:52:00.004+08:00

IT'S ONE MORE DAY TO PROMMM! :D whooohhh! hahahah! awesome yeah! omg, ive like been waiting my entire life to go to prom. or more like walking down the aisle in a long dress and all dressed up! hahah :D omg, im crazy. well, prom's tmrrrr! :D :D :D hahah! oh no, getting butterflies in my tummy right now! hope my make-up turns out well, cause im doing it by myself :( ive been practicing but idk if it would be nice eventually :D hhahaha! hope the lines are perfect! ohyes, not to mention the hideous pimple that grew today :( anyway, ive been oovooing w my awesome sisters! hahah! awesome, talking really loudly at the computer. but at least even though we would be not meeting up so often, at least we still got oovoo to meet up! hahah :D
hope all the girls are gg to be on oovoo soon! :D

us oovooing yesterday! :D hahahha. but sadly oovoo can only take up to 6ppl at one time :( ohwells, we'll work it out somehow!

PROM'S TMR! IM GONNA KNOW EVERYTHING TMR! YAHOOOOOOOOO!

xx

Post RedCamp Crazy Syndrome

2011-11-25T23:54:00.004+08:00

T.G.I.F cause we've got post redcamp8 crazy syndrome! HAHAH! :D I MUST SAY THAT RED CAMP IS SO FREAKING AWESOMEEEE! :D really one of the best camps ever! the people at ngee ann are just so freaking awesome, crazy, open and really friendly! thanks to redcamp8, i seriously cant wait to get into ngeeann ASAP! yes, just around one month plus till i start schooling there! and also, the APACHES are the love man! they keep on spamming facebook w freaking crazy stuff! they are even gonna meet up on the 17th of Dec for a redcamp8 post gathering! omg, nuts right? but AWESOME! hahhah :D i shall let the photos do the talking cause no amount or 'chimp' words can describe the love for REDCAMP8 AND THE APACHES! so gonna be an SL for the apaches next year!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

whooohhhh! :D and this is only a few day three pictures! day one and two had tons of other photos, but im like damn lazy to upload! hahaha :D (lazyiness setting in)
well, today i sorta had post redcamp8 crazy syndrome w Sherlene and Berlin. they came over to my place and we were like partyinggg! we went to fareastplaza to get their masks, which are really pretty! then we went for free yogurt ice-cream! (cheapskate) sherlene started it ! hahahah :P then we went back for dinner and partied all night long (only till 1030pm) hahahah! and for an actual fact, i never partied so hard in my room before! hahah! LOL :D more pictures!

all in all, ive been having a blast these four days and im really thankful for that! now, am anticipating for prom and chalet to comeeeeeeeeee! :D

xx

Red camp 8!!!

2011-11-22T22:40:00.001+08:00

Today is the first day of red camp 8 ! I'm not gonna talk much cause as u know, red camp is pretty fun and I'm totally wiped out!! Hahah! So, I'm in the apaches which is by far the coolest grp ever! With the crazy SL leading us, we had tons of fun! ( ESP their cheers!) boom dynamite and so on, but obviously my fab is boom dynamite cause I only rmb it so far. ( duh?) hahah. Self talk. Shall talk more about red camp 8 after thursday!!!!

Time to get a good nights rest for red camp8 day twooo!!!! :D

Breaking Dawn Part One!

2011-11-21T21:11:00.003+08:00

today's post is more or less all about breaking dawn part one! just watched it today and it is a pretty good show! not one of my favourites, but it definitely leaves u wanting to watch the part two! i'm currently like desperate to watch part two cause i want to know what happened after bella turned into a vampire! :D hahhaha! OMG, it had a totally freaking cool ending! hahahah. i shant be a movie spoiler so i would definitely keep my mouth shut, but people out there, WATCH IT! :D

on the other hand, cant wait for red camp tmr! finally can see the girls. sadly it wont be the full team gg, but i hope that we'll have as much fun as we do as always! :D also, took the entire afternoon planning my outfits for the three days! out the of the three, im happy w only two so i'm gonna wear the lousier outfit tmr cause it would be a shorter day! :D anyway, seriously cant wait to have some fun! :D

xx

Liar game marathon

2011-11-20T18:01:00.001+08:00

Have been super bored these few days. I've already finished all my new drama and I'm rewatching the old ones. So currently im on the liar game marathon! Consisting of 2 seasons and 1 movie.

So, had a wonderful dinner yesterday w church ppl at mâché 313 Somerset. Was a very gd dinner. Had rosti w chicken cheese sausage and pizza and fried silver fish and pork knuckles! Awesome dinner! Also went shoppig as well! Got a pair of shoes, a dress, two long sleeve shirts. Probably may wear the red long sleeve for red camp :) gotta go shopping tmr as well to find two more red shirts, if not i'll land up wearing orange or pink instead. Ohwells, as long as it is shopping in fine :D

Xx

freedom is here!

2011-11-16T17:17:00.002+08:00

so O's ended just two days ago w the last science MCQ paper. i must say that time really went pretty fast. not too long ago we were counting 159 days to the start of O's. now its over and im parttyyinnggg! okay, not so much. there seemed to be loads of things on my schedule but actually, im kinda free! hahaha. like i spent the entire day w jiamin yesterday! it was pretty fun! went to her place in the morning, then headed down to 313somerset to grab lunch and walk around. then went to ts and got 4 new dramas! which is unbelieveable cheap! then headed home were we started watching love buffet! hahahah! :D awesome show. 13ep and i finished it this afternoon! was kinda addicted to it cause i landed up sleeping at only 4am and when i woke up, immediately went to turn on the tv and continue. hahah! :D its a pretty good show, cause there's aaron yan and calvin chen ♥ well, though the story is good, the ending kinda sucked! it was just an ordinary ending which i kinda was expecting more from it. BUT, it made me think alot. since some thing big just happened which i have no idea how to react towards. should i cry my eyes out or should i just laugh it off? or maybe just regret or be thankful for everything he did for me. idk. ohwells :D ohyes! this is impt, cause forever 21 is bringing in their cosmetic line! :D whooohhhh! hahahah. though they only brough in the cosmetic tools, lip gloss and perfume, im sure sooner or later they would bring in more! :D hahaha!

so on the subject of cosmetic, im all prepared for prom night already! :D got everything settled and im ready to party all night on the 28th nov. though he may not be there, who cares right? well, after prom there'll be chalet which im looking forward too as well! but right now, there so many thing to prepare and the money not paid. im like in a stuck position. :(

im really talking crap right now, seems like ive totally lost my sense of direction at this point of time.

xx

RED FLATS

2011-11-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

O'S ARE OVER AND IVE STARTED PARTYIIINNNGGG! :D
hahaha. was super tense and stress during today's papers. like a whole weight of a truck on both my shoulders. but it was all over at 430pm! :D hahahha. went home after fnn paper, got dressed and went to 313 somerset! :D hahaha. was slightly early so i went to walk around. it had been like forever since i went shopping so it was heavenly! walked till both my foot bled. :D hahahah. so finally went to get a pair or RED FLATS from zara. pointy toed ones. so its super cute! :D
ohwells, all in all i had tons of fun w the girls and i hope they find their prom dresses soon! :D

xx

im gonna parttyyyy tomorrow!

2011-11-03T11:57:00.002+08:00

its one more day till O's are over for me! :D how fast time is yeah? well, tmr's gonna be 2 killer papers which i would definitely ace it. cause after that, i would be shoppinggg and playing my arse off! :D cant wait. ohhhh and PROM IS IN 25 DAYS! seriously cant wait. ive got everything except for make-up and ive got a feeling the girls and i are gonna have a BLAST! hahaha. i can imagine us sitting in the middle of the room and the spot light is just on us. LOL! :D well, that is how amazing we're gonna look like! :D

so back to the present. sherlene came by to my house yesterday. obviously the plan of studying changed into the plan of talking and talking! :D hahahaha. also, today i receive a letter from NP (red camp), gonna be in the red group! i hope its gonna be fun!!! there seems to be loads planned for us. and there's even mass dance which is not bad for a camp! :D
well, so many exciting things on my list and its only one day till i activate them all! :D whoootssss!

xx

Arsenal vs Chelsea

2011-10-30T08:59:00.002+08:00

ARSENAL WON CHELSEA 5-3! a historical game for both teams and a real shocker. for once in like a million times i watched arsenal's match, this was the best game ever! :D unbelieveable.hahah! VAN PERSIE IS THE LOVEEEE! he did a hat trick for arsenal which made the score jump by leaps and bounds. hahaha! well, gonna prepare to go to church now. :D

xx

6 more days to PARTIEEE!

2011-10-29T10:31:00.003+08:00

it's officially 6 more days till i can PARTIEEE! seriously cant wait! well, next week's gonna be a packed week with double papers for 2 days. not looking forward to those papers! ohwells, just gotta have a bit more resilience and patience to last me through the week and friday, IM SO GONNA PLAY UNTIL THE SKY TURNS PITCH BLACK! yahooooo! seriously excited. oh yes and its 30 days to prom! yeah! thats even more exciting! ive got everything except for make-up ! so im set and ready to have a blast w my girls! :D

back to the present. just glad that the week's finally over and i took an enormous break yesterday. well, its a reward for my perseverence over the week! ohhh, yes! there's a match tonight! arsenal vs chelsea! hahahah! :D ARSENAL FTW! they are gonna try their best today cause currently they've got their momentum already! :D so im gonna watch that, along w my dear magners! :D (its been ages since i had magners!) now im super motivated to study a bit.

oh yes, one more thing. Kayla got eliminated from antm all star cycle 17. so disappointing. she is really one of my favourites and its really sad to see her go. :(

xx

officially missing you

2011-10-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

emaths paper one was today! :D and guess what! thankyou God for such a wonderful paper! :D it gave me total confidence to do well for maths. yes, i spotted some mistakes here and there. but who cares? IT'S OVER! on to the next paper tmr. that is emaths paper two. many predict it's gonna be a KILLER paper. which i think so. well, there have been a few things to keep me in place together.
1. songs ive been repeatedly playing on and on again. (officially missing you , gonna get over you, big girls dont cry, good life, smile, who you are) basically these songs.
2. movies, movies and more movies! yes, totally in love and catching up with the OLD movies. like i just watched the change-up. seriously had a good laugh! ryan reynolds is still the hottest guy that walked this planet earth. theres so many more. i cant say what is my faves cause theres just like too many. heres some. what's your number?, bride wars, definitely maybe, when in rome. okay, theres too many to list!
3.as my usual, DRAMAS! just finished watching naka nai to kimeta hi,泣かないと決めた日 a drama based on office politics which is the cruel truth. well, thank goodness im not aiming to be an OL. now im on to code blue season two! a drama based on human life and what doctors face. :D
4. he is keeping me crazyyy. without realising, he keeps on popping on my mind and i get upset, i get frustrated, i get happy, i get excited, i get disappointed. so many feeling that just burst through everything ive been facing. "what i do to have you near, i wish you were here" like what avril lavigne says. it may be insignificant but not seeing him, not being able to just take a glimpse or see him smile or anything just probably tears me apart. well, it has been literally donkey years since we last spoke.

well, that's life i guess. going through the same old motions. whatever you do many not seem to be enough, but trust me you're definitely doing more than whats expected of you. (self-talk)

xx

ALL BLACKS CHAMPIONS!

2011-10-24T19:58:00.002+08:00

ALL BLACKS IS THE 2011 RUGBY WORLD CUP CHAMPIONS! (the match was yesterday) i was so freaking happy! so the game was as such. the all blacks scored the first try but lost the conversion. so it was 5-0. then there was a penalty kick so it went up to 8-0. that was the first half. after half time, in just seconds france caught up my a try and conversion. 8-7! nerve racking okay! i was like please let the all blacks win! cause if there is a try,conversion,penalty or anything, the all blacks wouldnt be champs. so the score maintained till the last minute.. you should have seem my reaction at the last 10 min. screaming, jumping around and just praying so hard that there wont be a turn over! Praise the Lord! :D but i do say, the all blacks were off-form will france played pretty well. :D

so today was english paper! fairly manageable i must say. i did a simple compostition and just threw in some pretty words to make it at least a sec 3 standard. (according to my teacher) there was a funny twist in the end & i seriously hope that the cambridge markers get it :D as for paper two, my weakest as usual. but i must say it wasnt as difficult as i expected it to be. so now i can only do is pray! :D

even though english is the only subject over, everyone seems to have a load off their shoulders. maybe that is a good sign, so there is a relief of stress. but i still pray that they would continue working hard for the rest of the papers! :D (omg, im starting to sound like weihan -.-) WELL, two more weeks to partyyyy! cant wait!

xx

splendid weekend

2011-10-23T09:22:00.002+08:00

another splendid weekend for me. idk why but recently i've been feeling kinda messed up inside. like yesterday, i woke up weeping cause i dreamt that everyone left. no one wanted me anymore & i just broke down. then at night i had an uneasy feeling as if something is stopping me from doing what im suppose to do. also, one of the things that have been repeatly playing on my mind is prom. idk why but it just keeps popping up. :D well, off to church and today's the rugby world cup finals all blacks vs france! all blacks will win for sure today! :D oh yes, tmr is english O's! so maybe that is whats making me feel quesy inside. :S

xx

half way there

2011-10-21T12:45:00.002+08:00

just came home drenched from the rain. went out today to grab lunch then i went down to orchard to get my prom mask. yeap! saw it on the way home yesterday, took a day to consider and finally went to get it today! it's from accessorize. so i hope no girl would get it from there too, cause i definitely dont want a clash of masks and even dress! :D well, loving my mask to the max! also, found a way to wear it and not let the string to be visible! :D hehehe. happy mua. shall go and study now cause theres the 3rd/4th position rugby match later on at 350pm! :D aussie aussie aussie! :D still cant wait for the finals on sunday! :D ALL BLACKS FTW! weepu and nonu! :D the outstanding players from new zealand. well, it would be the last time that i hear them to the war cheer/dance !:D

xx

stress much :/

2011-10-19T10:10:00.002+08:00

its a horrible start to a long wednesday. 1, my dad is not gg to work, so that means he would be at home the entire day. 2, with him home, i just gonna hear him nag nag nag. 3, with him at home, i can only study... ugh. perfect right? but if i look on the "bright" side, it would be good for me as i have my O's paper tmr and i havent even revised. so whatever. today shall be an exception. :D

did i mention that i had my jaw locked for quite some time and it was aching? well, went to the dentist yesterday to have them checked. and guess what was the diagnosis? it was due to my body reacting towards the stress im facing right now! hahahha! :D i feel that that is utter bullshit, cause i dont feel any stress what-so-ever! hahaha! :D now i can use this excuse to slacken my studying a bit :D

xx

time is ticking away

2011-10-17T21:00:00.003+08:00

its just a few days to O's and guess what? im drama-ing all day long! this may not sound good but whatever. :D went to school today for emaths consultation, weihan was so sweet to return a letter to me. full of crazy silly stuff in it, but it was sweet. didnt even know he reads my blog (weihan, u should have told me earlier!)*embarrassed* ohwells, ive been watching coffee prince for a few days already. another good korean drama i must recommend to people. genre is comedy, so u can imagine how crazily ive been laughing all day long! :D hehehehe. but it is a really wonderful love story of how a forbidden love became an acknowledge love to a destroy love. BUT, they are gonna make up ! :D cant wait. :D gonna keep on watching late into the night. :D oh yes, gonna see the dentist tmr. there's something wrong with my jaws, they keep clicking and locking up. so hopefully it aint something serious. ohwells, pray! :D

xx

IT'S GRADUATION!

2011-10-14T19:43:00.003+08:00

IT'S GRADUATION TODAY! :D had an awesome day at school today. the day begun with myself having a lack of sleep cause i only slept at 2am. rolling in bed all the time! totally had fun in sch with the girls! went around taking pictures, reminiscing about the past 4 yrs and we even went round the school writing our names! :D hehehe. hope that ink print would last forever to show the pioneer batch of volleyball girls !:D well, the graduation ceremony wasnt fantastic. literally was gonna fall asleep, along with mel and jiamin! LOL! :D but aft the ceremony we started taking tons of pictures with all our peeps! really wackyyy! :D hehehe. all in all, i totally had a memorable time in QTSS with my friends and i would totally miss the times we hung out everyday! :D
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one week

2011-10-13T10:38:00.004+08:00

it's officially one more week to the BIG O's. oh gosh, its too fast! it was like 6 months ago since the A class started counting down. now its 7 days. omg... well, even though its so near, i still dont feel any push what so ever. even now, im sitting in my bed watching drama! :D heheh. terrible yeah? ohwells, gonna finally graduate tmr! also done with my graduation letters! :D hope everyone likes them!
ps, feel like learning morse code! heheh :D

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problematic day

2011-10-11T16:09:00.002+08:00

you seriously cant imagine how problematic today was. firstly class chalet. yes, i love organising class chalet, and i love to help 2dee'09 undertake that responsibility to make a wonderful memory for all of us. and im doing my best to accomodate every single one of them. objective of the chalet is to bring 2dee'09 closer as next yr we would be parting ways, so that means no one is to be left out. but i guess some people have their own stand. sure you can voice it out. but listen, IT AINT ALL ABOUT YOU OKAY! i do things for a reason, not for myself or any particular person at all. its for everybody. thought that my problems would be gone after searching for the most suitable chalet that fits everyones time. that was tough enough. calling up the resorts and searching the internet. and ive got no complains. eventually with more requests and funny ideas, ive got a long way to go in accomodating everyone.

secondly, was thinking of reaching home to have my curry puff i saved yesterday. only to realise when i look in the fridge, ITS GONE. asked my maid and she said that she ate it. screw you okay! you dont have all the rights in this house. you even ate the shangri-la mooncake my mom already let it slide. -.- ugh. another irritant. now im starving and cant get any food.

thank goodness for the next 2 days of no school. its just gonna me and my drama and nothing else in the world. IM GRADUATING ON FRIDAY!

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PMS MUCH

2011-10-10T19:41:00.002+08:00

ugh, suddendly went into a rage at my maid and brother. i bet anything that stands in my way i will totally screw it upside down, inside out. they were so bloody annoyning. especially one that is freaking screwed up! HE HIMSELF ALSO FLARE UP FOR NO BLOODY REASON! NOW HE SCOLDING ME FOR BEING ANGRY? SCREW YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU! YOU ARE JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER. NO WONDER HE REPLIED YOU IN SUCH A BLOODY COLD WAY CAUSE EVERYONE LOOKS AT YOU WITH CONTEMPT IN THEIR EYES. ONE WORD FOR YOU : WORTHLESS. you should have just gone and disappeared for good.

17 again

2011-10-08T19:42:00.002+08:00

watching "17 again", so far it is a pretty good show. well its just the first 15min or so. :D hahah. his wife is like shredding his stuff now :D ohwell, am quite in a good mood today cause finally booked the chalet. yes! though its tentative, im quite sure we'll get it! :D feel like shopping again! hehehe

ps, i totally enjoy speaking to you. :X
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I am definitely the happiest person on this Gorgeous Plant Earth today! ♥

2011-10-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

you have seriously no idea how happy i am now, that i lost my sanity! hahahha! omg. the day ended perfectly with a wide smile across my face. why? cause he's going!!!!! i dont care if im his partner or not, just the fact that he is going is already the best thing ever! was acting super silly when i was going home. walking and giggling at myself. (there were even ppl staring at me) WHO CARES? IM THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD NOWWW AND FOREVER!
YATTTTTAAAAAAAAAA!
now ive gotta put in my 101% to dress up for promm! am too excited to sit still nowww!

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awkward

2011-10-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

freaking frustrated today. just gonna blurt everything here cause i really got no time to blog. so had english remedial after school and guess who was in my grp? calandra, marcus, rio, meimei and i. omg. AWKWARD. thinking back on our history in this sch, it was just plain silence throughout i guess. ohwell. now ive got a bigger prob! class chalet was originally to be on the 30th-3dec. but it so happens to end on a weekend, so it is more expensive. but there is no other date. was thinking 29-2dec OR 28-1dec. but idk. just gotta ask everyone about the dates AGAIN.

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im not limitless

2011-10-02T16:29:00.003+08:00

just gonna let it go, cause the best time of my life has yet to come. that's what i tell myself. but i guess i must say sternly that IM NOT LIMITLESS. yeah, im not superwoman. neither am i blind or deaf or illiterate. whats done is done. you cant undo things, nor turn back time. one more week of school and im graduating! ohgosh, time flies too fast.

I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no I will never be knocked down

C R A P

2011-09-29T18:50:00.002+08:00

i dont know what to say. been on the suicidal mode this few days. ohwells, the canvas roof at home tore off yesterday. so that's something new. okay crap it. really not in the mood. one line: you really never fail to disappoint me.

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Blame it on September

2011-09-27T19:56:00.002+08:00

i cant seem to piece myself together these few days. so many things have been happening, so many things left undone. kinda feel like im in a mess right now, as if i have totally lost my direction as to where i was suppose to go. wandering aimlessly now i guess... screw life

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weeps

2011-09-26T20:16:00.004+08:00

crying the entire day. ever since i reached home, finished up the drama "醉後決定愛上你" which is a really GOOD show. (gonna buy the CD) then i went on to watch Koizora. not the movie but the drama. 6 epi and finished all today. ohgosh. i am like crying buckets full of tears. a really good human drama. just like one litre of tears, but of course one litre of tears is much better. anyhow, KOIZORA IS A MUST WATCH! :D how i wish i could have the perfect highschool love story that u fall in love till death really does us part. silly me, that wont ever happen in reality.
all the results came back. managed to hide the fact that i failed english and nothing much happened. pray the total results would be wonderful! :D

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happy 6th birthday Nikki!

2011-09-24T14:21:00.002+08:00

yup, it's Nikki's 6th birthday today! :D time really flies really very fast. adopted her 2 years back on the 3 dec. when i first saw her, i was like 'omg, she is huge!' but now she's slimmed down alot already. over these past 2 years both of us had crazy times. running around in the house, going swimming, meeting new doggy friends and everything else! im really certain to say that I LOVE NIKKI AND SHE'S THE BEST! so happy birthday darlinggg! :D

also, sherlene has accepted christ! God is really wonderful! :D

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im at my best

2011-09-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

everyone seems to be talking about graduation already! it's like less than a month to graduation and exactly a month to the big O's. pretty fast i guess. well, my results have been pretty good. not fantastic but good enough to get me into ECH. just felt really angry at FT. she told the entire class "rebecca, u under-performed" i was like shit, just pass only. but when i received my paper it was 86%. WTH! it's a miracle i can get this type of grades. really wanna punch her directly in her face. ugh. these adults should just LEAVE ME ALONE! even my mom wont leave me alone. screw you. dont bring ur bloody work stress back home and start shouting at me. FYI, im not ur slave nor am i a wonder woman. so dont expect me to read ur mind when u dont bloody give proper instructions. ugh.#angry

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the start of hell

2011-09-22T20:20:00.003+08:00

got my freedom yesterday, went back into the cell today.
this sucks. just ended all the papers yesterday but results are all back today! havent been getting horrendous results, but they arent fab either. borderline i guess. well, i know my mom aint sastisfied. but heck it. got so pissed at her this morning (plus my brother) that i cried all the way to school. yeah. early in the morning w black and red puffy eyes. YUCKS! then more cold war at home but finally told her to just forget it. i dont wanna go to sch tmrrr. so lazy to wake up so early in the morningggg! oh yes! ppl are saying that prom is probably gonna be in the sch hall.... AHHHHHHHH!

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it's over!

2011-09-21T18:22:00.002+08:00

rooting for allison harvard all the way! quirky girl!

today is finally the last day of exams! :D went out w the girls to scape to celebrate. really let loose and go wild, by dancing of course :D and playing sports! damn funnn. it was like 6 hours of running around? wacky stuff! but coming back to reality, results are out tmr. looks like its just gonna be a few hours of fun before getting back into the study mode again.

ohwells, after hanging out with the girls, went to shop with my mom. went to h&m first. as i thought, it was full of ppl buying the same clothes. and it was all winter collection. thick jackets, long sleeves... how to even wear them in SG? you would like literally cook yourself in those clothes! so we walked around and found this pink long sleeve blouse. it was kinda thin so wont be hot at all. then later on went to prada and gucci look for my mom's pull-string-bag. it was from a very old collection so it was all out of stock. BUT, found this lovely travelling bag at prada which im totally gonna get my hands on soon! (i hope :D) hehehe. then we went to topshop. had to "drag" my mom into it. she has this biasness against "cheap" shops like forever 21 and topshop. she would not even give it a chance to prove itself. i mean, there are some nice stuff in those shops if u look hard enough. So, i brought her in and we did find something! :D she found a beautiful blue and black dress (latest collection i think), and it totally made her look 10 yrs younger. just gonna have to work out a bit to lose a bit of fats. but other than that, she looked fabbb! :D then i went looking around and found this purple dress (LATEST COLLECTION!) and it looked exactly like Kate Middleton's dress. hahah! :D thank goodness i could fit into it. :D loving the dress! and we both bought new pairs of undies :D heheheh

shopping with my mom is the best! she pays for it (kinda mean, but its a fact) and she gives awesome fashion advice! actually, almost all my outfits is picked out by her i guess! :D LOL! :D

well, how i wish this kinda lifestyle would continue on forever. really want the big O's to finish! hahah! OH! one more thing, AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL CYCLE 17 IS OUT! hahhah! waited a billion yrs for it to air. thankyou berlin for telling me! :D hahahah. first episode aint that bad, but aint that good either. one good thing, alexandria was in bottom two and her fans hate her. one bad thing, she was not eliminated! omg!!!! ohwells, there are some really good models in this cycle, but some are just border line OKAY. i want allison to win! she's creepy in a good way and i totally adore her photos! :D

xx

Big Disaster

2011-09-19T17:32:00.002+08:00

cant wait for this to come true.
aint really in the mood to do anything. firstly, practical today was freaking S.C.R.E.W.E.D. screwed beyond words. i was sitting right in the front and i didnt get any gas at all. so i cant see the ppl around me and i was like stuck. eventually i used theory to reason out what gas is for which. secondly, PROM MAY BE CANCELLED! omg, i know its 'may' but the probability is still there. why? thanks to the weak response from the level, they are unable to hit the min of 200 pax. thanks alot. -.- forget the dress, BUT I CANT FORGET MY DREAM! the perfect ending to secondary school life is just being crossed out that list. unbelievable. thirdly, cant seem to get any F&N facts into my puny tiny brain. make me wanna sleep once i hit commodities.

oh yes, one more thing. i missed the Big Fashion Show yesterday that happened in the indoor stadium. ugh. all thanks to prelim 2. awwww, i wonder when will the next one be. i hope its soon.... *fingers crossed*

ohwell, that is my 'perfect' life. i guess there is only one thing to do left. go on my knees and pray damn hard. Queenscup is tmr, so ALL THE BEST TO QUEENSTOWN PLAYERS! :D

xx

sickening saturday

2011-09-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

havent been doing much today. just lying around on my bed with my books open, TV and com on. great, "little distractions" ohwell, yesterday was sort of a good. NewZealand 13 Tries, 83 points : Japan 1 Try, 7 points. and it was reported in the papers today "All Blacks CRUSH Japan". well, i do thik that japan played really well. at least they did not get zero points. and they really fought hard till the last whistle. now am watching arsenal vs blackburn soccer match and im like literally screaming at the TV! omg, freaking disappointed! arsenal actually had a OWN GOAL! freak! 'sigh' now its 3-2, blackburn in the lead. hopefully the tables would turn around soon. :D

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T.G.I.F

2011-09-16T15:08:00.004+08:00

i want this mask!

thank goodness its friday! cant do any papers any longer. have been doing the stupid prelims the entire week. so far, only today's paper, chem, has been the best! :D the rest? uhhh...

so besides the exams, prom is confirmed! :D it's at the furama hotel (yeah?)and its $60+. got my dress and all the accessories already. left w the mask and make up! :D hehehe. well, not much of an interesting week.

just came back from the city w the girls. though it was short, it was crazzyy. it's really never not crazzy when u are w them. it's like u can let loose and totally express urself freely ! :D graduation is inching closer, and im definitely gonna miss them deeply ! :D

cant wait for rugby match to start! new zealand (all blacks) vs japan. though i love the all blacks, im gonna stick to supporting japan! :D
GAMBATTE!

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sports fever!

2011-09-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

the pile of work i never intend to touch at all :X

been on a sporting fever this weekend. ever since we've got mio tv at home! im so thankful to my dad, finally glitch free matches! :D but i need to claim my terriroty every now and then, cause there's a woman in my house that also loves this box. on the bright side, ive been having fun so far! watching the rugby match. japan vs france. japan lost by 22-41. kinda wasted. they were so close at 20-24. they need one more Try to beat france, but they kept making mistakes... ohwells :D now am watching arsenal vs swansea. :D GO ARSENAL! UNDERDOGS FTW!

oh, and ive been on Sunshine Angel drama fever as well. since i would be missing the first episode, i figured youtube would have it. not long after, i was hooked onto it and have been watching ever since. am on the 8th episode already! not as interesting as the rest of the tawain dramas but still not bad. just hope that there wont be "fake" fans of japanese just because of this drama :D (yeah, i may sound unreasonable and stupid, but im a pure supporter of the japanese!)

xx

RUGBY WORLD CUP 2011

2011-09-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

today has been a rather "life-changing" experience. it's unbelieveable, but i was literally sitting right beside my dad and both of us were screaming at the TV. was watching the opening match of the rugby world cup. new zealand (ALL BLACKS!) vs tonga. it was a win for new zealand (41-10) total trash! i always wondered how can i fill that empty place in his heart. & i guess i did it today! it wasnt his daughter that was enjoying the game as much as he did, it was me. and im really proud of that! actually my plan on getting into touch rugby was to find something in me that would make him proud. but i guess its really the time spent together that makes it worth it :D

ohwells, it was really really fun watching the match. and it was totally way easier to understand than soccer. (probably because i had 2 ppl answering all my questions :X) OH! back to sch stuff. had a wacky lesson w mel. was laughing and talking throughout chem. it was so boring, both of us were even snacking! hahahha!

that's all ive got to say today! just really really happy :D

xx

torpor II

2011-09-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

not much of an interesting week. going back and forth from home to school and back. spent most of my time watching drama even though im meant to be studying. (there's no stress at all) well, i seriously feel that gg back to school is a waste of time as it totally drains out all my energy to study in the afternoon. moreover we have like 3 consecutive hours of chemistry! that lady is one crazy woman! ugh. keep telling myself 6more weeks till its all over. i pray that time flies faster. well, to calm myself down from wasting time at school, i went to grab a tub of fries from rock and ash. expensive but very nice! :D

also, recently heard that orchard road is flooded w people carrying H&M bags. omg, please dont let H&M be the next topshop/forever 21/cotton on. hopefully the craze dies down. but i really feel that these ppl are stupid cause YOU'LL LAND UP WEARING THE EXACT SAME THING AS THE REST. it aint that special afterall.... ohwell, after this "cheaaaap" season, i hope it goes up a bit. at least i hope that people carry off the outfits with style!

xx

twitter

2011-09-06T20:20:00.002+08:00

looks like im gonna be on twitter for some time. since all the sisters are beginning to get onto it. well so far, it's dead. more like people talking to one another and im like going okay... well, that's probably another reason why im kinda anti-social.

back on the sad side (again), school's been boring. especially for chemistry lessons. 3 straight pathetic hours seeing ms liang. omg. sitting in her lesson for one minute can already drain all my energy....

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unbreakable

2011-09-02T20:05:00.003+08:00

moody day today. all thanks to two ppl that just had to break the news to me. gosh. yeah and one more w that sickening attitude. drifting further apart i guess, and soon it would be just goodbye.

watching the soccer match between singapore & china. their coach looks like a conductor! hahahh! :D well, pray for singapore!

xx

HEY NOW OJISAN!

2011-09-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

starting from the left: akari (cutest ♥ ), yusuke, me, kento.

yes, the jap boys that came to school today! omg, wonder when they're going back. it's sad that i cant host them. :(

ps, credits to JM for pictures!

xx

HEY NOW OJISAN!

2011-09-01T15:46:00.002+08:00

OKAY! TODAY SHALL BE IN CAPS CAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM!

JAP BOYS CAME TO SCHOOL TODAYYYYYY!

OMG, DREAM COME TRUE. THOUGH I COULDNT SPEAK JAP FLUENTLY LIKE HOW I PRACTICE CAUSE I WAS SO DAMN NERVOUS! HAHAH! IT WAS AWESOME. TOOK A PIC W THREE OF THEM. AKARI IS LIKE THE HOTTEST! :D SHORT THOUGH, BUT CUTE! HEHEH. NOW I AM EVEN MORE MOTIVATED TO MARRY A JAP CHEFFF!

also, congrats to the augmented grp (hweeying, sam, kailyn). they really performed well! we even had a huge banner for them! ;D wheeeeee

JAP BOYZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ! ♥

xx

torpor

2011-08-31T20:24:00.002+08:00

one word, one mark, one step to F9. gosh how i hate that word. and it fits its exact meaning, sluggish. ohwell, nothing much of a day. EL paper was a dread. LITERALLY! there were stupid lower sec ppl blasting their songs in their classroom. i was singing and doing the paper! distractions -.- well, tmr's gonna be a fun day w the girls. all of us playing floorball. then we'll have our mini pot lucky party during recess cause the canteen is close. bought ice lemon tea and gonna make a brownie tonight! :D got one teachers' day letter to write and off to sleep. ultra tired...

xx

dramalogy

2011-08-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

el paper tmr. nothing much to brag about (or more like a lot to moan about). well, just spent the entire day and finally finished 'dan chao fan' drama.
nights!

xx

fried rice paradise

2011-08-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

it's 10pm on a monday night and im still lazily wasting my day. have been watching rolling love, dan chao fan on youtube. (ps, youtube sucks big time. they like totally changed the programming, making it ultra slow) :X well, fifty plus more days to o's. kinda unbelieveable right now. still have the 'its not too late' mood. heheh. ohwells, cant wait for school on wed. somehow i feel like it's gonna be a wonderful day, excluding the EL paper. :D hopefully it wont be that difficult.

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his grace amazes me

2011-08-28T15:22:00.003+08:00

nothing is really more powerful than the grace and the love God has given to mankind. he was really admist in our presence and i can feel it that he is working in my sisters! yesterday was really amazing. praise the lord that all the girls went to church, and praise the lord even more that Shiyuan and Melissa has accepted the Lord into their lives. their actions really touched me and i too feel encouraged by them! have decided to fully commit myself to serving God, so am gonna help them as well as help out at the children's camp this year! will be kinda hetic, but all to give thanks to God!

heheh :D what's more? the girls and i had a blast at scape w jm's church friends. they really reminded me of the YF spirit when i first went to church. how nice would it be with kai wen, reuben, daniel that clique to make noise again! it would be nice if more YFers could be touched by the lord :D anyway, we were partying, dancing and all yesterday night! real fun :D and also, we celebrated belinda's birthday! heard she cried the day before. SO SORRY BEL. but i hope she was surprised by her cupcakes! really cute ones :D

but, all good things will come to an end. cause ive got a sneezing woman in my room. (shall be nice today, shant call her names) ugh. GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT OF MY LIFE!

xx

:D

2011-08-26T20:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEL! idk if you would read this but im sure you'll have a wonderful sweetttt sixteeenn! :D just be patient! hehehhe :P
i must say i had a wonderful week. had tons of laughter during class with liyi, iris, mel and the 'useless' boys, namely kenneth and cheeguan. talking rubbish all day lonngg :D well, it makes going to school more worth it, since we're just going through the basics. looking forward to tmr, would be having a girly day out with the sisters and im sure that bel would especially enjoy herself! :D wheeeehhh!

xx

the voice

2011-08-23T20:16:00.004+08:00

just watched the very first episode of the voice. awesome show. especially adam levine. he's like the cutest ever! ♥
hehehe. so admirable :D well, on the same topic, i am also very pleased with myself. went to river island to but my prom dress. paid for it by myself! yes, it may not be anything big but i am glad i used my own efforts to get it :D AND YES, PROM IS ON! the 25th nov will be like the next best thing! :D apparently it would be in just some hotel restaurant, but i do hope there'll be a dance floor! :D (crosses fingers)

school is as usual. just that i witnessed the whole bunch of 4B boys go crazy during the lunch break. hilarious. and shunjun was running around smearing onions on ppl's faces. (including mine -.-) hahah! :D other than that, had kinda funny yet embarrassing talk w cheeguan. and i had a very good talk with dianrong during fnn!:D heheheh.

xx

jin

2011-08-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

back on a romance drama. no matter how much i vow i will never believe in these fairytale love stories, i guess it is still my source of energy where there'll always be a perfect ending. it's a wonder how much ive been through, deceit and abandonment, and i still strongly strongly believe that there'll always be a wonderful ending. anyways, hopefully it would be my turn to go to a ball and have my prince charming on a white horse take the first dance with me. silly girls imagination :D well, am off to get my prom dress tmr. now it's time to continue watching my 'dreamy happy ending love story' drama :D

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EARLY CHILDHOOD EDUCATION HERE I COMEE!

2011-08-19T18:58:00.002+08:00

today is just fantastic! well, school was as normal. the fun part of the day was after school. so immediately rushed home from school, turned on my computer and logged into the DPA portal. and there is was "congratulations on getting into early childhood education in ngee ann polytechnic" OMG OMG OMG! that was what was going through my mind. first to call was my mom, and she was screaming like hell on the other line. HAHAHHA! :D then went to call dianrong to tell the girls and im sure they are all very happy w me! :D then went on to tell the tuition babes! heheheh :D yeema is like in melbourne screaming as well! :D heheh! im so glad to have so many people supporting me and im extremely glad that i made it! :D yahhhhooooo! :D

so after all the screaming and stuff, waited for my mom to come back home and we went shopping to celebrate! :D hehehe. bought so many things. a blue dress from bershak w a blue bangle. and a pair of shoes from there too! :D then we went to ZARA, bought myself a nice green mini skirt, a orange cardigan and a black vest! then went to forever 21 and got 2 jeans, purple and pink! awesommmmee! spent $200 odds altogether. :D (that is part of my $1000 gift) so it was a wonderful day! :D

after spending so much, feeling more obliged to study even harder! :D heheheh

xx

ecstatic

2011-08-18T21:15:00.004+08:00

today was a great day. some what great. it started off with getting chinese o'lvl results. wonderful! achieved an A2, which is indeed a miracle! praise the lord! then was extremely late for SS class, so the girls and i were locked out. hilarious time with them! dancing, laughing and crazy stuff! hehehhe! :D then had english oral which was a piece of shit! the lady was like rolling her eyes at me. got me extremely nervous after the mid way point. :( so whatever, i guess i did my best! :D slept the entire day and now am watching victorious.

ps. looking forward to tmr's DPA resutls. on my knees praying!

song to you
I'll give you my song
These words to you
Sing you what I feel
My soul is true

xx

who's out there?

2011-08-17T18:48:00.003+08:00

cried during chem class today. just feeling terrible. everything is gone, lost forever. and i bet it would stay like this. ohwells, dreading to pull myself to school. piles and piles of work coming in, sleepless nights. what can be worse? -.- ohyeah! chinese results and eng o'lvl oral tmr. this just spells G.R.E.A.T. on the bright side, looking forward to the girls carrying the same bag to class chalet. the only problem is the dates. ohwells, im sure something good would come out of it.

ps, had some great designer macaroons today! 5 for $25. but it was heavenly!
xx

count your blessings

2011-08-16T20:04:00.002+08:00

im tired of torturing myself, hoping that there is a brighter light and the end of the road. and no, im not talking about love relationships. maybe i just gave up hope already, or just that there's that missing puzzle piece that will never be found. at least i know now i only got God and God alone. there's no one else but us. just dont wanna cry myself to sleep anymore.

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cheers

2011-08-14T15:56:00.002+08:00

the end of the week is coming soon. just a few more hours and im back to the energy draining school hours that makes me sick. to add on to my agony im so not looking to the 18th of august. so many things on that day. let alone english oral o'lvl is even worse! ugh. have been watching ko3anguo for two weeks already. super long drama with 50+ episodes. finally on the 40th episode already! :D well, let's toast to a wonderful week and hope that it wont be depressing as last week.
xx

God will make a way

2011-08-11T20:04:00.002+08:00

when all hope is gone and when i dont feel like anything was in the right place, God really did make a way. even if it was that insignificant, i am delighted and i ask for no more. well, let's pray that all my peeps results for chinese o's will be wonderful and that we need not retake it! :D

"God will make a way, where there seems to be no way. He works in ways we cannot see, he will make a way for me. He will be my guide, holding my close by his side. With love and strength for each new day, he will make a way."

xx

turning back the clock

2011-08-10T16:34:00.002+08:00

that moment just felt so real. like it dragged me back into the past where it was just pure innoncence. i dont know if it was real but i ask for nothing more. even if it was for a split second, i would cherish every moment of it. for the record, i didnt regret it.

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national day

2011-08-09T20:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
just finished watching the national day celebration on the tv. had the whole family crowd around the coffee table eating din while watching the parade. hilarious! and this year's show was pretty good! :D

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captain america

2011-08-08T16:09:00.004+08:00

Chris Evans as Capatain America. the amazing thing is that he was visually downsized to be that puny character before his character was captain america!

just came back after half a day out with the peeps. it felt like ages since i went out with them, and probably the first time i went out with many of them! :D hahah ! it was really fun, something different, something i didnt think i would ever do before. hahah! really great having such bunch of friends!

so the day went like this. boring day at school with stupid NDP ceremony and speech day. then the girls and i started feeling cheapskate, so we went to eat the refreshments, which of course it FOC! then we went down to cine to catch out movie. 18 of us in total! imagine the length of the tickets. probably taller than adam! :D hahaha! just kidding. then before the movie started, the girls and i went to take our neo prints. totally adorable photos! :D it started getting extremely cold during the movie. my teeth were like chattering throughout. (exaggerating) ohwells, the nose-flairing guy beside me was nice enough to lend me his uniform (though not very warm) but better than nothing :D hahhah! the movie wasnt too bad, had my ears closed most of the time. the sounds were like literally blasting right into my ear. no wonder i prefer watching at home, can control the vol. :X hehehehe. just to end of the day, i rushed back home cause i was gonna be late. (curfew -.-) i like literally ran home, from cine down to 313 then from novena back home.

but all in all, it was a really wonderful day out with the peeps! :D if this was so much fun, i bet 2Dee'09 chalet would be even more fun! :D should be settling the admin stuff soon before o's get nearer. ohwells, time to sleep :D
nites

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probably forgotten

2011-08-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

had a wonderful day with aunty maki and family yesterday. they are finally settling in singapore from japan! so i guess i will be seeing them more often. just thinking back about it, it's really wonderful to have met them. two families gone on a trip to bali club med and we just met! :D well, should be taking hannah out for shopping after o's! it would be a fun girly's day out! :D so after din yesterday, we went to bungy. of course i had my magners :D and my mom went on the bungee. hahah! :D hilarious! a huge crowd there as well. went home slight pissed, missed my 930pm show, got angry and then slept. wonderful day :D

today isnt much of a day. just came back from church and now am hitting the books. like literally. it's been a lonely weekend. not a single soul(friend) has spoken to me these two days. ohwells, i guess they are probably busy studying and im just hanging on by my thread while they are on their net :D

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chilly thursday

2011-08-04T21:20:00.003+08:00

it's freezing today. a non-stop downpour since this morning till now. well, had a wonderful afternoon nap and now am watching drama. currently have the ugre to buy my tawain dramas cause they are on sale now! like on the first floor of square two. but im telling myself, no i can buy them aft o's. but the temptation is there. well, still have tons of hmwk undone which im sure i'll manage to somehow squeeze them in by tmr :D well, the countdown is on to chinese o lvl results, english o lvl oral and to my results for DPA!

xx

112th post

2011-08-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

this is the 112th post, one of my fav numbers. lets say to commerate this number i shall tell you a good deed i did. i actually tried to save this little cute white dog w a red collar. BUT, it's a bitch! tried to carry it back to its home but that bloody little thing bit me. whats more, it's bloody owners dont have a door bell for their house! really? what kind of house doesnt have a doorbell, or at least a bell to ring. -.- great. so much for being nice. things also aint going too well for me. tons of things going through my mind, tons of problems yet unsolved. something is just admist right now and it aint making me feel good at all, but i just cant seem to put a finger to it. it's there but not there. that kinda feeling. ohwells, so much for trying so hard. "people do change"

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finanace.

2011-08-01T19:57:00.003+08:00

had fun with the three girls yesterday, though it was tiring. but currently not in the exact mood to talk about it. why? cause my bloody brother just overspend by a $1000 this month. and guess what, my mom is questioning on how i spend my money. wtf. also not my problem still ask me. yeah it's a merry go round in school but behind that smile lies a thousand problems in the brain. seriously, i just want an escape where i feel no pressure at all. none whatsoever.

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all at my finger tips

2011-07-30T11:31:00.003+08:00

feeling kinda lousy about myself. Mainly because of how insignificant my strength is to help people. An example is that i am witnessing an adultery going on, a lovely married couple that is going to file the papers. I know everything, but yet im still powerless to stop it from happening. Like last night's CSI show mac said ''we've got the latest tech, 3000 policemen on their toes but we still cant find the cabby killer'' this is exactly how im feeling now. It's like screaming right in your face and sticking its tongue at you. I dont want things to turn out like this. Dear God, pls make a way for a wonderful happy ending,

xx

roll me away

2011-07-29T18:57:00.003+08:00

kinda on the high happy mode today. even though i totally had a lack of sleep, just cant stop feeling so energetic and the unending smile across my face. omg, what has gotten into me?? hehehe. ohwells, it's been great! singapore won malaysia! though it was a totally lousy game and that the jap referees suck. but thanks to that i could talk to him. at least it's a good topic to talk about :D things are back to the usual, but somehow im getting my hopes up high again. something fisshy is going on and im definitely gonna get the bottom of it! :D

xx

one table, three eyes

2011-07-28T16:23:00.004+08:00

i must say today has been quite well even though it's 4 already. first is that i had a good talk w berlin. somehow feels like the girls are slowing getting closer and stronger over the years. it's really good to have them around where you can turn to, tell all your feeling to. it really does take a load off! :D second, early dismissal! well it's good in a way that i dont have to study in a hot room. :X third, ahem wished me! :D so my nerves were calmned down by a lot!

fourth, DPA INTERVIEW! thinking back on it, it was hilarious! so the thing is that i rushed home, took a minute to bathe. was gonna change till my best bra spoilt. like seriously? of all times! had no choice to cut it. hai... then went off to the office to get some paperwork. saw new ppl in the office and they were like saying how much i will be doing well, till my dad talked about my last interview. the one for mauritius, that time i said that they owed that trip to me. so everyone was laughing in the office. then there was this stupid traffic jam that made me late for a minute. ohwells, the worst part is this. THE BLOODY TABLE WAS HUGGEEEE! it was like this 5 metre long table and i was seated so far from the interviewers. nerve-racking. but all in all, it went pretty well i guess. said all i had to say. :D time to pray that i would pass. back to studying!

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on to my journey

2011-07-26T18:36:00.002+08:00

i am screaming at the top of my voice now cause I AM SHORTLISTED FOR DPA! yahooooooo! yes, it's only the first round but i am like freaking out! :D well, the life deciding interview is on thursday. like 2 days from now. kinda impromptu so im gonna be busy these two days. gonna kiddy-fy myself and im sure i'll ace the interview! :D thought of what to wear already. some bright colours like PINK! gonna start getting my portfolio done nowww, and take loads of pictures of my handicraft! :D wheeee! but the downer thing is that ive gotta start memorising things like possible answers to their questions and blah blah blah. ohwells, it's gonna be a ride! :D

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uneasiness

2011-07-25T19:39:00.003+08:00

i dont know what im feeling now. stupid dramas are stirring my emotions, making me ponder what love really is. i wonder if it's the feeling that u are afraid to lose something, or is it the feeling where u want to have a sense of protection. i dont know. well, on the other hand, school work is building up once more and school days are going to be longer. having the week blues nowww!

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plan B

2011-07-23T18:30:00.004+08:00

the bitch's arrived. ohgosh. why the hell did u even come? just give some bloody excuse to stay far far away from here. have some balls will you and just scream it down his face. ugh. her prescence just spoils my entire day. let alone weekend. ohwells, had a wasted trip to Queenstown Library today. was suppose to find scientific terms of yeast and blah blah blah. but none were avaliable. gosh. i guess im not gonna do so well for part B then. shuxxx. gonna start studying later in the evening. havent found my inspiration yet. or maybe it's just unreachable.

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your bullet

2011-07-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

finally cooled down after today. idk why but ive been flaring up really easily these few days. the weather or your face that makes me sick. idk. so many things going on now. w the report books back, extra lessons on sat, stupid forestfire shouting down my neck. is there like a spell to cast all these away. gonna really waste my time at the library tmr. gosh. in all my schooling years i have never stepped into the library for research. omg. what is happening to me?

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racial harmony day

2011-07-21T19:59:00.003+08:00

in love w this
kyo wa tanos kata des.
had a really greeat time with the girls today. all dressed up in our ethnic costumes! :D girls were looking fab in their malay costumes and i was looking fab in my kimono yukata! :D hahah! i was really hot and stuffy in it, but worth it! :D kenneth was so sweet by telling me that i was very pretty in the morning, so were the girls! :D hehehe. it was really the best way to end of my secondary school life. wonderful memories it is :D all in all, TODAY IS A REALLY FABULOUS DAYY! :D

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my stronghold

2011-07-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

today is a really awesome day! first and foremost, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEEN SHERLENE! :D hahahah, sorry ur cake got slightly squashed. second, mel has finally turned into the most beautiful lady ever! omg, damn happy for her. after 4 years of knowing her and she's WOAHHH! third, my brother is sick. YES AH! good for him! fourthly, LC was a breeza. checked with kirsten (SCGS girl) and both of us got the same answers. plus her chinese teacher confirmed it! and LASTLY, I GOT MY PINK CURTAINS FOR MY WALK-IN PLUS I BOUGHT THE FILM ROLL THINGY FROM IKEA. they were on sale so might as well get it! WHOOOH! ultra pretty, not to mention "IT" officially has nothing to do w my room, except for 2 pathetic small boxes :P well, gotta study for the stupid SS test tmr. wonder if i can actually score in it. ohwells. :D

xx

200

2011-07-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

there's always a price to everything. even how much your own flesh and blood cost. mine is $200. imagine living a life with only $200, it cant even cover your basic necessities. you are pathetic and worthless. live with that guilt in your heart and forever be haunted by it. as long as i have her, i know she'll always be with me. u are just rotten filth. see you in court.

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it's truly a mystery

2011-07-17T14:47:00.006+08:00

life is too short, it's a pity to waste it on insignificant beings when there's a much bigger world to it than now.

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